valentine recollections

Here comes Cupid’s day again. I have this certain abhorrence during these times. Times like this make me so lonely. And wretched. And I don’t want to have an ephemeral escapism by drinking alcohol with my other single friends. This could probably worsen my condition because we will all end up talking about our relationship desires which will definitely eat up all our souls. We’ve been talking about our dating status for the longest time and sometimes I try to imagine how everything will turn out if we all end up together. I just can’t tell who ends up with whom because, uhm, I honestly can’t picture one out. I’m just kidding anyway.

So, since Valentine’s week this week, I plan to maybe add up some spice into my droning everyday routines. Maybe I’ll wear red. To show how romantic I can be. Through this way, I might catch someone’s attention by giving him a hint how I desperately need an effin’ romantic rendezvous. Ha ha. Kidding. Anyway, we should blame whoever is responsible for brainwashing everyone into thinking that we, dateless souls, can’t possibly enjoy a special holiday for couples. Because I believe we can! [I’m not alone in this one, right?]

You see, I have truckloads of tasks next week and since I work best under pressure, I won’t do anything now to somehow lighten up the work. I’m a supercrammer, you know. Works best for me although it gives me a lot of stress and added anxiety.

You heard me right, I will celebrate Valentine’s day this year by focusing on my academics. Isn’t that sooo fun? I have examinations and papers due this week and I can’t believe I’m saying this right now, but this is what’s on my mind right at this moment, “Thank God my to-do-list is full.” There, it sounds so cool. I know that this could make it easier since you forget things by making yourself busy and stressed out.

I remember my last Valentine’s Day. I received two sets of gifts. But it didn’t’ come off as a surprise since I know very well who my loyal suitors were. Ha ha. They gave me flowers and cards. Guy A gave me a single red rose and a mushy card. Guy B gave me an expensive bouquet of flowers and a mushy card too. But you know what, I got so disappointed because they gave me the same Hallmark card with the exact same message. And it made me realize real messages from the heart would always matter since anyone can give anyone a cheesy Hallmark card whenever they want to.

In case you notice, my thoughts are in all directions now. I don’t know what I’m thinking. But here’s my point. We all know that Valentine’s Day is such a bitter day for singles like me. Right? But I have now accepted and it has been well thought of that this coming event isn’t intended solely for sweet couples. We have friends. And I know it will all be fine. Just don’t feel sorry for yourself because there will come a time when you don’t have to think about these thoughts because we will all be happily attached with our destined honey bunches (?!) soon. Just wait. Just have the patience to hang on and you’ll know why it deserves such a long wait and why it never worked with anyone else.