calendar girl, who's in love with the world, stay alive

Suddenly, I had the urge to write. It'll be June in ten hours I can't believe it. Actually, erase that, I CAN believe it. Time really flies so fast. Ever since the year started, too much stuff happened. My life was non-existent at the beginning of the year, it was all about nonchalance. It was basically dull and lifeless. And then some life happened when I went to California, I felt rejuvenated, I felt a lot of happiness. It may be shallow happiness, but it was happiness all the same. I was happy, I was loving life, I talked a lot and I really felt alive. And it went on when I came back to New York.

It really went on, I think I became REALLY happy. For the first time, when I moved far from my home country, I was contented. Somehow, the world agreed: I met interesting people, I gained a couple of friends, I strengthened some personal relationships and I felt loved. Everyday, I'd appreciate the small things that were new to me and other things which kept me fairly enthusiastic. It was really all fun, I would've puked if I were a pessimist. And of course, he was part of the reason I was happy at the time. In my self-proclaimed happiness phase, it really helped that I could share it with someone else. What's the point of any achievement without anyone to share it with anyway? It'll just make you lonely. So it was really helpful he was there. He really WAS.

Currently, I am still happy. Half-happy you could say but at least happy. I'd fool myself if I tell you I am up-in-the-clouds-happy. Some bad stuff happened in between my happy stages and I was, uhm, hurt. It didn't leave a deep wound thankfully, but it left me with a scratch, and an irritating scratch it was. Other than that, yes, I am happy. I am okay. The other aspects of my life are still running. I go out more often now and I have three full months to fool around. It's the summer and that means I have to get some money which is why I'm now serving burgers to spoiled kids in Long Island, and which is also why I need a new bikini.

That's life. Come now, June. I am ready.

this blog is not on leave. ha ha

Before I even get started with studying, I decided to hang on to my blog first and not make it rot because of non-updates.  Since reading previous entries can be a little helpful to me and I don't want a future without something I could look back on to, I figured there has to be something in my mind worth blogging about.

Okay, it's May now, four months of 2009 had gone past and I'm freaking out a little bit? One thing, time is too depressing. I hate that time runs so quickly I couldn't keep up with it. Every week is just breezing through me. Right, I felt like I just breezed through this semester. It's already my finals next week and I'll be done after that. I guess I'm a little sad that my Art class is about to end and I have to really be focusing on my major by next semester. Oh yeah, and I was rushed into being a Secretary of the school's Marketing Society but oh well, let's see what comes up this fall.

I don't know but for some reason, I'm not really a fan of the summer in here. Now that the trees are already greener than green, it makes me kinda sad? Ha ha. I know, weird but I prefer the early Spring colors of yellow, pink, white and light green. Dark green everywhere is just depressing, or I guess I'm just not a fan of green things.

Right now, I wanna go back to California. I just miss the fun and the randomness of where we're gonna end up every night. It's just all fun and games without any plans. And being in school now is all about planning. By next month, we're already halfway through the year and I'm scared of a lot of things.

Let's just say that I'm still happy, 2009 is still good. But so many things are just running in my mind right now. I don't know where to start.

this blog is on leave?

HAHA. Recently, I'm just not into writing very long entries and I am uninspired to write anything. So I sorta, kinda, almost moved. I found a place where I post shorter entries instead and I update it almost everyday. I am only telling the url to people I know so just hit me up.

Meanwhile, everyone's styleblogging nowadays, so I finally joined the bandwagon by making an account over Chictopia.com. I don't know if I could keep it really updated because it's going to be a tedious job: taking a picture of what I wore, uploading them, labeling items and all that jazz. But right now, it's all new and fresh to me so I uploaded two photos. Visit my Chictopia HERE.

That's pretty much it. I am loving spring time and I'm just three weeks away from escaping the spring semester. I'm a little busy but things are still running smoothly.

I'll see if I can write something here in the next weeks or months.

XO.

it's been three months?

I haven't updated this for two weeks now because I think I wasn't in the mood to write anything. So I will just punch in some highlights. Things have been good still. There are still those days filled with little miseries but something equally exciting comes up along the way anyway so I'm good.  I think I would just like to say that every thing's been okay and I'm currently biased to my good feelings because it's been three months now, and I can still say I love 2009! =) 

school stuff

shopping

hiking!

okay, this looks ugly but I swear it's not that bad. It's my political poster for Arts

That's it for now. Will update more later. And in between my tests, I've been reading Eleven Minutes by Paulo Coelho and it's been great!

ending february

I woke up at around 8:30 today and I can say I started my day right. Cereals for breakfast then went online for a bit and went out of the house. I jogged around the neighborhood and it was definitely fun. I've always wanted to jog in the morning but I just wouldn't wake up and now that I actually did, and went around for an hour, it was really rewarding.. and sweating. No plans of school today and I will be stuck here for a couple of days. I wasn't in school yesterday because I was too tired to wake up. For some reason, when my alarm clock buzzed, I couldn't move myself up to get ready for school. I was feeling really tired I don't even know why. I felt sick, my head was aching and I felt like my body's dragging me back to bed. So I decided not to get up and continue my sleep even if I was supposed to go to a movie night with friends and the usual fun at school.

And that's it. For today, I realized February's almost over. I can't believe that it is almost over. It felt like I just started school and now, it's been a month. And I didn't update my blog often. For the love month, I can say that it has been interesting. I love that the magic of the new year hasn't left me yet, it still is with me and I hope it would remain here until forever.

Trainnnnn

For the love month:

• I was happy most of the time
• Someone tried to pick me up in a bus stop. LOL
• I found my long lost red headband
• Loved arts and guitars
• I joined a lot of organizations, and got busy with meetings and some events
• I met a lot of new people. Everyday is a fun adventure
• I hitched a ride a couple of times
• I watched a live basketball game in school cause my friend invited me over
• Someone told me something surprising
• I went out with.. a friend
• I went to NY Fed and saw gold bars
• I cut my hair
• Got a new phone and has been using it extremely
• Was eating cheesecake while watching NBA All Star on Valentine's Night
• Felt good that this was a far cry from my February a year ago

That's basically it. I'll edit if I missed something. I hope March gets better, winter's almost over I can't wait for Spring!

money, gold, and arts

Yesterday, I was in the city with some people from my school for a trip to New York's Federal Reserve. Quick information: it's the place where golds from other countries are very well kept. And believe me, that vault is indeed very much secure five levels down Manhattan's ground floor. It's also everything about money, bundles of them. And I almost drooled when I saw a huge container with $46,000,000 worth of SHREDDED money. Have you seen Mad Money with Katie Holmes? Go picture. And before that, I stayed in school for a couple of hours because I had to be dropped off earlier than schedule, and I got to take some pictures.

Car wash in the morning.

You may say, "Ah, winter," but it was terribly cold yesterday I felt like my legs were coming off.

My Art classroom! My safe haven with pals Fabian and Steph. Sometimes we just crack up from drawing. We sit on the other side, near that ladder by the windows.

Filthy lockers for Art materials

This was the only time I got to use my camera inside NY Fed because apparently, no electronic devices can be used inside the building for security reasons.

I was tired on my way home. I felt like throwing up because we passed by McDonald's two blocks from NY Fed and had burgers and fries. I was drinking orange juice in the brisk cold outside after eating. Funny how all people looked so cold with as much clothing as possible. It's so cold these days people will celebrate if the temperature hits the lower 40s with suntan lotion!

Now you know why I anticipated the sun back in Cali too much.

fine and dandy and california

I'll try to say some stuff about my trip as hard as I could. Those who have seen my Facebook pictures at least have an idea how it went. We were with old people obviously and that made it extra funny because B and I were considered extra special. But anyway, I'm also having fun being back in New York. The school is fine, I got into an Art class and it's gonna be fun trying to draw as fcking best as I could. And work is fun! I already miss my workmates. I hitched a ride with someone yesterday on my way to work and he told me, "I've never met anyone complaining about going to work late." Well that's me, you know. And anyway it's freezing here, morning classes were cancelled today because of the snowstorm, I'm lucky it's a Wednesday.

On another note, California is heaven for sun lovers like me. Perfect weather, perfect everything else. And for Filipinos like me, it's like you're in the Philippines. They have this city they call Little Manila, and you can go out at 3 in the morning and eat Goto or Tapa. They also have a place like Kokoy's Grille where you can eat Adobo anything. We also had breakfast one time at Chowking and I bought my mom pastillas from both Red Ribbon and Goldilocks. They have Seafood City, a grocery store as big as Rustan's Supermarket in the Philippines. We don't have that here in New York. Philippine stores here are as small as any ordinary deli in the neighborhood. And I won't forget Jollibee! There's not one but a couple of stores around. Crispylicious! =)

Goto. =)

I tried the famous In-N-Out Burger from the West, and my favorite Jamba Juice and although the city isn't as hectic as it is in New York, San Fran's still good. The Crooked Avenue, the ups and downs in the road, the cable car, the bay itself, and other good stuff like going up the hills and taking a view of the whole San Francisco. I also noticed the diversity in California where Whites are no longer the majority of the population, hopefully people would mix because something's not right with exclusivity. I get it, people of different races have different backgrounds but hopefully in the long run, differences could all be weaved together. 

Pictures!

And I won't forget my plane trip on my way back home. I crush my seatmate! He looks like Paolo Nutini. We talked and I learned he's from Brooklyn and he came from Utah from the Sundance Film Festival and he was talking about how he misses his dog and that he's finally gonna rest after parties of selling himself. He's a writer and when we weren't talking yet, he had this sketchpad where I think he writes his poems or something. I love one-time magic! Ha ha. We didn't ask for each other's names. We just talked trying not to bore ourselves out of the five hour flight from Phoenix to New York. 

Until next time. I will travel solo again sooon! (i hope)

january january

January sounds so... early. Like it's always a beginning (DUH). I just feel something about January, like I should be happy, I don't know why.  And I don't want the spirit of the New Year to totally fade because it might pull me down and bring me back to the place where I was weeks ago so I am packing tonight for my flight tomorrow morning to someplace bright and sunny!

Anyway, this is just to say that since I don't have enough time for a decent post, I'll just write that I promise to be more positive this year. I'll make no list of resolutions, just a single vow to rub off pessimism and just bring in more positive energy as much as possible. From this day forward, I'll try to be giddy and excited and not passive or useless or dull. If ever shit happens, which happens most of the time, I'll just let it pass and not meddle on it too much. Go ME!

So since I'll be tripping for two weeks, I won't be able to update. But I'll be right back just in time for school with a better and brighter outlook!

tralala

Just to make a complete turn, I don't want to end my year feeling all down and low. I want it to at least end with a smile on my face. I think I had a nice Christmas over all. It's not extremely merry but I can definitely say I was happy. We were house hopping, visiting family friends. My Christmas wish list was a little helpful too. At 12 midnight, we opened our presents and I didn't have a hard time guessing mine since my gifts were all cards. Gift cards from H&M, Apple and iTunes. At least, I got to tick three from my list. I just used the H&M gift card yesterday, shopping my heart out and I ordered the aqua sleeve for Sam too and I started downloading good stuff from iTunes. (Better get going before NY approves iTax!)

Gift cards galore!

My brother pretending to play the piano on Christmas Eve

In other news, I am happy I got a new job! It does me good because it can be a distraction and thank god, I get paid for it. I am loving my new workmates definitely. Working in a retail store is waaaay better than working in fast food because you don't have to deal with grease, hot surfaces and sweat. I am a Cashier and that hand scanner on the side is cooler than I thought. It just feels weird because I don't know a lot about sneakers yet I'm working at Foot Locker. I'll just leave it to the guys. It gets crazy because all my workmates are mostly guys and a sneaker store is definitely a man's world but I'm cool with it, I like it. I think I just need to know the basics and I'll be fine. I don't want to start talking about my workmates yet, I think I need more time getting to know each of them, they all seem fun to be with. I already know one because we're in the same school and I owe her for getting me in, but anyway, I'll make an entry about

 my new job sometime when I get the hang of it.

Yes, I got that ref shirt!

In the meantime, I'll glide smoothly this week, wrapping up 2008 and I'll be grooving to the West, to the West in a jiffy. =)

city escape, early winter and halloween

I was walking along 8th avenue in the city yesterday when a woman around forties in denim pants and jacket with a pink shirt approached me and told me all of a sudden, 

"You're smiling,"

I kept smiling and stalled a little bit to face her but implicitly told her I should keep going because I had a long way to go, to walk that is. I was trekking 59th to 33rd street to Penn Station where I could hop on a train headed back to the suburbs.

"Why are you smiling?"

At this point I was confused because I thought she was going to ask me some directions around the city so why offend my politeness, then..

"You're smiling but deep inside you're really not happy. You have problems with love and relationships and you're concerned about your career," To this I just said, "What?" because I was completely lost and didn't know who I was talking to. Then she said,

"You're feeling stomach pains because you're having your period,"

And I was really struck and surprised by this as well as the thoughtof wandering psychics around the city. Of course she said she's a psychic and I was this close into sitting with her somewhere to ask a lot of questions but because of the nasty weather, I had to go home, fearing I would be iced out at 5:30 in the afternoon and the thought of sitting at home out of my purple jacket and wet boots appealed to me. Yes, I was having my period unfortunately, which bothered my date with Ka-te a little bit since we had to look for a Duane Reade around the corner then a bathroom after but to be told some weird things out of nowhere was really funny yet interesting.

So I wasn't really happy, eh? Whatever! Ha ha. I kept smiling as I walked downtown even if my legs were hurting from the long walk. If I only knew the Subway tracks really well I would take it but I was afraid I'd end up somewhere gangsta so I just walked. It would be perfectly easy if I'd end up in front of the Archibalds apartment but no. Nate is only a fictional TV character. And yes, we kept dreaming about a jogging Nate Archibald as we were walking around Central Park.

Tuesday lunch at Serendipity 3 then later went for some Jamba Juice!

Yesterday was quite eventful indeed and in a way it led me to thinking I really want to live there someday. I want to possibly intern somewhere then get an apartment, walk around to feed myself with a possible appearance at a NY street fashion blog (NYEH) and just enjoy the dirty city. The possibilities are endless and it's just making me scared but at the same time psyched about my future. Ka-te is also considering living in the Big Apple. To us! Ha ha.

And finally, I realized I really gained weight and I am not doing anything about it. Of course Ka-te mentioned it and I don't know what to do with it. Screw all the jumbo sized meals in New York! But I love NY pizza. Argh.

Also, the weather was wintry yesterday even until now. The temperature has been terrible in the upper 40s and it even snowed in New Jersey last night. Talk about the ever changing weather, stock market and my mind. (NYEH)

Give me 1 also for an effort on my "costume" for a Halloween Pumpkin Park job.

I'm the one wearing overalls

Too fat for school. Ha ha.

Til next post!

birthdays, accounting and cheesecakes

I think I haven't been blogging lately. It may be due to my uninspired days, in time with the gradual drop of temperature. But all is fairly well, I got a little busy last week for doing a couple of papers for my courses and with work too. I am also enjoying school, chatting and trying to do good. If only I had a car I could go places but my limited transportation limits me too of going out when needed. My friend told me had I lived nearer her place we could always hang out but our houses are 10 exits apart on the expressway and gas prices aren't cheap. I could buy a car in exchange of not going to California and Manila next year but no, I won't do that. 

Anyway, I have a story to tell and it is just this past week when I took my Accounting test. You could just imagine how fast I handed my paper in because duh, I already took Accounting in the Philippines and mind you, the Ateneo exaggerates its tests too much. In less than thirty minutes, I left the classroom with my professor saying,

"Are you sure? Do you want to use more of your time?"

And I smiled and said " No," with the eyes of my classmates on me probably wondering why I am too much in a rush.

In my judgment, I like how professors teach here. They always make things clear and talk a lot. If I compare my Accounting professor now, with my former Accounting professor in the Philippines, I would laugh and think how ironic their tests are. My Accounting professor in the Philippines definitely has lesser right to give a very brain-draining, mind-boggling heck of a test.

Meanwhile, my literature professor digs my deepest literature passions because ever since I started attending his class, I read more and I try to read aloud to practice this skill. Ha ha. He told us public reading is a skill we always have to practice since it is relatively important when we graduate. I can just imagine because I don't want stuttering, mispronunciation of words and frequent pauses when I read out there to further my career. But now, I can't imagine myself out there doing serious jobs. I don't want to be that old yet. And being nineteen scares me, really.

And yes, I celebrated my birthday quite happily. My dad's and my birthday are ten days apart so we celebrated it together and I'm fine with that. 

And I swear I hate that I love stripes but it clearly makes me fatter than usual. 

Oh well, it is just unfair how all the scrumptious delights on earth have the masses and oodles of calories. But still, food is love. 

Ha ha ha.

This doesn't make sense but that's it for the sake of posting. ;p

yada yada

I was rather surprised to find out I got 17 people to vote in my poll in the sidebar. I was only expecting three, or five, tops, because I didn't think there'd be people interested in my little dilemma. But despite having biased voting, (go back to the Ateneo, which are yay! the champions of the UAAP!) I think I have finally decided even though I still have 34 days to think about it. And no, neither one of you voted for it. Staying in my current school is the one I chose because I thought transferring mid-year is a little too hassle. So even if I plan on transferring, I'll do so next year, Fall of 2009. It may be a sign of laziness but I figured it is my best option. So there, let's see if it changes some time this month.

perfect honesty

It is unfortunately starting to get chilly again in New York and I'm relatively pissed. Mostly because there is no time for lazy clothes anymore but layers and layers of clothing. And it bugs me because I hate the cold.

I can't even imagine it's already September. I can still clearly remember this time last year when I was on the other side of the world, whining and impatiently waiting for term break. Somehow, I feel like I wasted a year in my life with nothing but food and books but nonetheless, I embrace the new experiences I had moving here, although there weren't too much. I admit I sometimes miss the fun in Manila whenever we go out because I am quite a misfit here. I don't have a lot of friends and I barely go out. But on the up side, I still love that I'm in New York. There's no better way to do it than stay. Being the "uncool" makes McLovin and Michael Cera more relatable. I'm fckin trashed. lol.

So if anyone of my few friends in the Philippines happen to read this, will you please do a fundraiser for me? HA HA. It's for a good reason: I need airfare. Kidding. But seriously, I don't know yet what plans we have for December but I am just hoping for the best. I don't want to waste yet another Christmas with nothing but dinner, four stockings and a Christmas tree. My not so frequent Mike's Hard Lime solo drinking could never substitute for an all out hard drinking and partying while playing "Shit, shit" at a friend's place or some club in the metro. It kills me that I can't dress up in full swing, hang out over the smocket or sleep over in my best friends' houses. Don't get me wrong, I do have friends here but the friendships I made with them haven't reached the level of deep friendship I have with my loves at home.

How I wish I could just get a hug from everyone I love. F-ing ber months....

dazed

Abandoning my blog for a week is something stupid. I hate it when I don't update because it means disinterest in things which I'm working on a lot. So while I'm letting my nails dry before waking up to tomorrow's school morning, I'll fill you in with some details of the school I had last week.

It was nice so far, meeting new people, new professors and seeing some familiar faces. Aside from the daily fashyon dilemma, my days have been better since I'm trying to be a morning person as possible. I registered for morning classes so I could be done early in the afternoon. In doing so, I'd have more free time to do whatever I want may it be random play or an afternoon nap. And I don't regret my choice so far because I don't like it when it's 4pm and I'm still sitting in class. 

Anyway, the professors seem nice that I think I'd have an interesting semester ahead and the new classmates are as, interesting I guess. Up until now, I haven't bought every book needed because the bookstore left me with no Accounting book in hand so I'm hoping when I get back tomorrow, the shelves would be filled with books, used books if possible. Waiting for a book to be delivered in 2-6 days didn't sound appealing to me which made me apprehensive on buying them online. And oh, those bitchy books cost me a couple of hundred bucks with a passion.

Meanwhile, the train and I are still buddies although sometimes we tend to fight. The annoying delays get into my nerves, I'm only human. If only I could save up for a car then I'd be fine but there are some choices I have to pick and honestly, oh never mind.

I think I should bring a camera everyday. There are just some things that I can't easily translate into words. So let's see if I can keep the few people who read this interested in the random images I'd be posting on some random days.

Random fact: I have mixed emotions for the fall season, I hate the cold but I love my TV shows.

shopping thirst

I've been getting really hooked with street style blogs lately. 

facehunter

copenhagen streetsyle

The fashion sense of these people are amazing and inspiring. Seeing the fashion savvy can't take my hands off shopping, online shopping that is. I feel eager whenever I get an e-mail telling me my order has been shipped. 

recent order from American Apparel

Currently, I am waiting for a shirt, two sunglasses and a hoodie all from Forever 21. I love Forever 21. They got nice pieces that are budget friendly so it's definitely a safe haven for shoppers like me! 

Meanwhile, I will be going back to school on Monday and actually, I'm not excited about it. I'd still be working on weekends and I am waiting for a response from the school job I applied for to see if I got another thing going on. If it won't work, my dad's friend recently opened an ice cream shop so I might squeeze myself in a little bit. The Starbucks thing might not happen until the end of October when I'm done with my fast food job.

So there. All work and school so far.

school issues

Why am I thinking of school at 2:25 in the morning when I have work tomorrow? 

The thing is, this early, I am concerned with my current university because I think it is not as competitive. I had little information about college life when I moved here in the States so everything was a little bit "rushed." And now that I know more, and is more concerned about my future, I am thinking of transferring to Stony Brook, another state college near our area which fares better than my school. I can't believe I'm actually thinking about it, school hasn't even started and I haven't even finished the essay and resume I have to work on for a school job application.

But just so I have another perspective, do you think I should transfer to another university despite declaring my major in my current school and a good academic standing? I know it all depends on me, but what do you think?

I want to decide early on so I could fix issues beforehand.

VOTE ON MY POLL in the sidebar. ===>

The poll's gonna be stuck there until November 1st, the deadline for transfer applications in Stony Brook.

the not too many good days

I am still laughing from what I did with PhotoBooth and iMovie that I swear I would think twice next time if it's a good idea to publish something stupid. It was really an impulse because I wanted to do something out of boredom and would love to edit a video. Since no one can be my star yet, I did it myself and looked for a valid reason why I should make it public. I know you guys are still laughing, but please, let's all move on. :)

Anyway, I was close into having a meltdown last night. My body wanted to give up while I was at work. I was too tired to move and I didn't know if I could still give the next customer the fries/drink they wanted. When something bugs me inside, it eats my whole body out and sucks my whole energy making me look pale, dull and really weary. Again, I was thinking of a lot of things and once I hit rock bottom, it's difficult to pull myself up again despite my friend's attempts at pulling off a grand joke. Too many things were running in my mind and if it weren't for my last minute self-composure, I would fall right down there on the floor, flat and numb.

I need a break. But I don't have it.

The only highlight of my day was when I received a letter from school offering me a job I could love. It says I could give them a resume and a writing sample so they could see if they can make me a Writing Center consultant. I bet I could do just that and the hourly salary would just be the icing on the cake. I know I am far from being a good writer but it would be a really wonderful experience. Let's all hope I could do that and at the same time work with lattes and espressos at Starbucks. I am a wee bit excited for the fall. 

But I'll miss you. :(

i want you to know pt.2

I love it when bloggers blog about their frustrations especially when they write something they want to tell someone in real life but just don't have the guts to do so. There is relief when you virtually give out what you really want to say even if you don't address it directly to the person you really want to talk to. 

I had a version of this one before, and I am making another one. 

"Write ten statements, intended for different people. Never tell which one is to who. Just write things that you've always wanted to tell them."

To [put name here],

1. I like you. In fact, I like you a lot. You don't know how much I wanted to talk to you just to know you more. I was very happy when we had a brief word exchange when I was able to kid around. I can't wait to hear you sing. :)

2. You know what? For some reason, I really hate you even if you're not doing anything to me. I guess when you see how much a person believes in herself that she thinks she's all that, it's too much to handle. I hope I won't bump into your profiles again. It makes me mean. 

3. Yay that we are on "Hi" terms now. I like it better, because sometimes, I think about dating you. Me and my imaginary self. I don't think it's even possible. But I admire you secretly. Wahahahahah! I hope we become good friends.

4. I was too fascinated with your eyes then but now, I feel that you're more of a friend person. I'm too young to die. lol.

5. We've randomly talked about you one night and I wonder how you've been doing now. The things I did in the past....

6. You are better now I guess. How are you? I still think about you sometimes but more on a friendly note, because I'm wondering if you still fool around or have you completely grown into a mature man?

7.   And I just can't pull myself away

      Under her spell I can't break

      I just can't stop

      I just can't stop....

      It's always fun working with you! Always a free show.

8. Thanks for being nice to me. Sometimes, I want us to be close friends sometimes not. When I see your rowdy pictures on Facebook, it makes me think twice. I think I'm more on the conservative side. Ha ha!

9. Thanks for making me less homesick. You know who you are.

10. Define fat ass! I know I shouldn't be checking your pages but my boredom brought me into diving into the secret nooks of cyberspace and I was REALLY laughing when I saw you post your picture on the internet only in your undies showing your ugh, gross COTTAGE CHEESE to everyone. Oh please, for the love of mankind, don't think that everyone can flaunt their shabby selves in fcking underwear. *mean, mean, mean.

Remember this, Jecky? It's always a relief!

IM-ing

My friend Joey posted this on her blog without my permission and you might as well see it. We were chatting, as we do most of the time and I didn't know she was "capturing" some moments which turned out unflattering.

Ha ha. These are moments when we talk about random things that we ended up talking about beauty toys, a fresh topic on my mind because I just came from CVS and brought home some drugstore make-up. As a sweet revenge, I'll post the screenshot of my desktop when we had our virtual conference with my sweet ex lovers. HA HA HA.

the diary of a fast food girl

If my memory serves me right, I think I have been working for a month now. And with that I have served and met different types of people, those who are really nice, really annoying, adorable and whatnot. I realize my job isn't as bad since the experience taught me various lessons which would help me in the future, like dealing with people from all walks of life. 

I remember the other day when a kid kept going back on the counter asking me almost every type of question a customer could ask and it made me just smile and think I like it when the customer likes me. He kept asking me, although there is a stretch of crews waiting to serve him. He was even smiling as he approached me for the nth time. He knew he's asking way too much. Ha ha.

There are customers though who I try to avoid because it is such a pain serving them. I don't want to mention stereotypes because I don't want to be hated. But these people always make sure they have to complain one thing before they even get satisfied. 

"My fries aren't hot, can you give me fresh ones?"

The customer is not always right I think. The counter people are! Ha ha. Okay, that's overdoing it. My fingers actually got caught when I absentmindedly closed the cash register. It hurt for two hours.

Aside from the customer-server relationship, there is, of course, the relationship between workers. There are those who are pleasantly nice and those who are annoyingly, for the lack of a better term, bitchy. I hate cocky workers, the know-it-all perfectly unstained people, the snub, the too frank and the useless. But I love the friendly, the bubbly and the hot ones. LOL.

Speaking of which, I have a set of dreams about possible moments with a crush/boyfriend and one of them sort of happened yesterday. I got "kinda" stuck with him in the rain because we were waiting for our rideS home. Just as expected, it sucked that I acted a little snub. I should have been more perky and lively and talked more. But I was just cool, like nothing special is happening. But hello, an opportunity is being missed! I can stare at those powerfully fascinating eyes forever. 

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There are a couple of things in my head right now, or make that a couple of things in my head almost every time. Every time I pause there are too many things running in my head, which always asks. It's like I have completely embraced being an introvert. I would always end up not speaking what I think and would hate myself for not talking. But hopefully I would function properly and deal with things the normal way: speak and just tell everyone what's on my head.

It's just it takes a while before I really get comfortable with another human being. 

Should I go out on Wednesday?