randomization

I am starting to feel that I'm starting to give up on my writing. Before, it has been my first love. Every inch of thought would be written, despite having syntactical errors and all. Now, I have become an art victim. I like everything artsy and even adore the passionate ones who even take dancing, singing or music therapy as their major. They're adorable to me or maybe it's all envy because most probably they won't be hating their jobs when they graduate.

Is this just a phase? Sometimes I even think the reason why I'm ____g is to add an oomph to my pseudo artisanship. Ha ha. But seriously, at some point I'd ask myself why am I on business. Sometimes I can't picture myself especially when we have business events in school and business attire would be required. Don't even get me started with Accounting because Accounting majors have always been a mystery to me. Such a boring and dull place to be in. And what's more annoying is I am getting good grades in it, hell, I'm such a bore.

And indeed, I remain to be arguably the most unlucky when it comes to love relationships. My Facebook relationship status has been growing spider webs all over it. There would always be problems, complications, girlfriends and whatnot. This world could never give me a fucking decent match. And is too much to ask for that one person I could always hug? Oh yea, I already found a solution to that. But still. Still. Still.

There's always something lacking. And if everything comes to worst, I would probably end up giving that guy a booty call. Ha ha ha.

Of course I'm joking. (?)

LOL. Oh fuck this.

had i been filthy rich..

I've been telling my friends I'm broke and that I only have forty bucks left in my wallet, plus a few change. You see, I've been telling this for weeks now and I feel terrible for myself. I could not go out sometimes because I don't have the money and I tend to choose cheap meals just so there would be some money left for me. I could not shop for the clothes and shoes that I want and I am depressed that this broken-ness is starting to take its toll on me. But above all this, I still haven't tried looking for a new job. My Foot Locker career has ended abruptly. Well, it's not yet official but ever since they cut hours, I was left unwanted because they prioritized full time workers which I was unfortunately not. I am now only left to depend on the allowance my parents give me and I feel guilty and useless for this over dependence.

Aaaah. I am a lazy bitch for not looking.

I will, one of these days. It's just that the pain of having to work again in a new environment stops me from doing it. Oh why can't all people just be rich?

And this broken-ness is bugging me because Spring Break cannot come any sooner and yet I don't have any plans made. The Florida promise is now blurry since my budget can't even make it to a hundred bucks. The Canada possibility also comes impossible because of this destitute condition. Give me a break.

All I want is another plane ride. Ha ha. Solo trips never fail to give me the rush. My last trip was the funniest so far because for the first time, almost everyone was already in the plane when I boarded. I was a little late and I didn't realize it. When I got in the gate the guards were like, "Oh there she is," Ha ha.

My seatmates were nice too. Remember "Paolo Nutini"? It was just nice talking to him and with the girl too on my right. Both of them were playing with their Macbooks, too bad I didn't bring mine. And during the last few hours on the plane, while Paolo and I were talking about his giving up on college and while he was sipping his whiskey to not be antsy, our seatmate was gone. God knows what she was doing after her friend said Hi to her on his way towards the back of the plane. Ha ha ha.

I'm lost again. Just felt like telling a story. Be back in a few. And March has been nice to me too so far. I love you, 2009.

Ha ha ha.

70 Odd Questions

70 Odd Questions
What is your middle name?	Beato
What color is your mailbox?	black
Are you single?	yes
Have you ever hit a deer?	no
Do you have to drive over a bridge to get home?	no
What color is your room?	cream? nothing fancy
Do you have a small driveway?	we got enough room
Do you know anyone with the same ringtone as you?	probably, because my phone doesn't ring it just vibrates
What do you do first in the morning?	look at the time
What brand is your printer?	hp
Do you enjoy fighting with people?	no but I actually miss it
Is your hair naturally straight or curly?	straight
Who was your kindergarten teacher?	Ms. Suarez
What is your ringtone?	bzzzzz bzzzz
Are you taller than your mom?	yes
What curse word do you say the most when your pissed?	fuck fuck fuck (yep, i say it thrice)
Are you God?	no
Do you like someone?	YERRR =)
Do you enjoy writing in colored pens?	maybe
Does anything hurt on your body right now?	my neck from my two hour test
Do you often cry during a movie?	over the sappy ones, yes. can't help it
Last phone call you received?	at 3pm asking my whereabouts
Last text message?	from Ariza
Do you hate your life?	no, yes, no
Do you get mad easily?	i try not to
What is your biggest pet peeve?	people licking their fingers when counting money or flipping a page. you get the picture. gross.
Are you cold?	i am freezing
Do any of your friends have kids?	yep
Do you know anyone that is pregnant right now?	yes
Who should pay on the first date?	it depends on what condition
How many years older than you are you willing to date?	not more than seven
Do you have any friends?	yes, i believe so
Do you have any mean friends?	maybe?
What is the ugliest color to wear in your opinion?	green
Have you ever liked someone who all your friends hate?	yes
Have you ever felt like driving off a cliff, seriously?	never
Have you ever contemplated suicide?	i'm not suicidal
Do you scratch your ears?	maybe
Who was the last person to hug you?	OMG, not recently but Chris at work used to hug me a lot which is sweet!
What brand are the pant/jeans you're wearing right now?	xhilaration from Target. woot! gotta love Target
How tall are you?	5'6? close to that
What is the closest green object?	my pencil holder
If you were born the opposite sex, what would your parents name you?	Angelo, my brother's name
Do you want to have kids?	in the future
What is the brightest color you're wearing?	mint green pajamas
Who is the friend you have that you would never have expected to have?	Seven? i never thought i'd have a black gay friend. HAHA.
Who do you hate the most right now?	myself for being discontented
What kind of car do you want?	a yellow Volkswagen New Beetle
What is your favorite video game?	rockband
Do you like your dad?	yess
Do you have any TV shows on DVD?	none cause I'm broke
Are you wearing make-up?	mascara, eyeliner, bronzer, beeswax lip balm
Do you have a tattoo?	none
Have you ever broken a pinata?	not ever
What time is it right now?	4:47pm
Do you know how to draw?	a little
Who loves orange soda?	Kel loves orange soda
Who did you last IM?	Kathleen
Do you work a lot of hours?	i don't have work now, but i might get one tomorrow
Where were you in the last 24 hours?	school
Who was the last person that called you?	Dadddd
Is there anything you regret?	hmmmm
Do you know where your family name originated from?	Because Spaniards told Filipinos to use Spanish last names?
Is there an animal that creeps you out?	rats, cockroaches
What is your favorite color ON A CAR?	blue?
Do you use digital or film cameras?	digital
Do you own an iPod?	I love my Apple. I prolly can't live without music
Have you ever been on a charter bus?	yes
Do you like going to water parks?	not really. beaches more so.
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dazed

Abandoning my blog for a week is something stupid. I hate it when I don't update because it means disinterest in things which I'm working on a lot. So while I'm letting my nails dry before waking up to tomorrow's school morning, I'll fill you in with some details of the school I had last week.

It was nice so far, meeting new people, new professors and seeing some familiar faces. Aside from the daily fashyon dilemma, my days have been better since I'm trying to be a morning person as possible. I registered for morning classes so I could be done early in the afternoon. In doing so, I'd have more free time to do whatever I want may it be random play or an afternoon nap. And I don't regret my choice so far because I don't like it when it's 4pm and I'm still sitting in class. 

Anyway, the professors seem nice that I think I'd have an interesting semester ahead and the new classmates are as, interesting I guess. Up until now, I haven't bought every book needed because the bookstore left me with no Accounting book in hand so I'm hoping when I get back tomorrow, the shelves would be filled with books, used books if possible. Waiting for a book to be delivered in 2-6 days didn't sound appealing to me which made me apprehensive on buying them online. And oh, those bitchy books cost me a couple of hundred bucks with a passion.

Meanwhile, the train and I are still buddies although sometimes we tend to fight. The annoying delays get into my nerves, I'm only human. If only I could save up for a car then I'd be fine but there are some choices I have to pick and honestly, oh never mind.

I think I should bring a camera everyday. There are just some things that I can't easily translate into words. So let's see if I can keep the few people who read this interested in the random images I'd be posting on some random days.

Random fact: I have mixed emotions for the fall season, I hate the cold but I love my TV shows.

shush

I am not inspired to write yet and an essay is due in a week.

I'm not sure if I'd be able to update this for days but I have a new secret space in cyber world which I'm recently getting a little addicted to.

Only two people know it.

I'll tell you things when I get in the zone.

Later. =)

Photo Booth-ing

To be completely honest with you, I am a little vain and I feel like I haven't brought myself to that tendency for quite a while now simply because there are no opportunities for an "official" primping event. However, toying with Sam on a random sucker-ful day, I ended up with, some might say, disturbing images. But to the delight of I don't know who, I am going to post said images just so I could have another entry. I can't talk about my life now. And as much as I would like to vlog, I think I'll pass. I don't want another sudden-urge-video-product. Too risque!

First frame is a little funny. An attempt to look clinically insane, whether it'd be for the lack of supreme partying or spending Friday nights over some fastfood restaurant serving burgers and large sodas while talking about random stuff with workmates. You can just imagine how my former life is beginning to sound like history to me. But all good, this is America, people!

The second one is a parody of iPod advertisements. You know, with the ear phones and cool stuff and all. Click here to refresh your memory. But for some reason, this picture reminds me of Safeguard commercials back in the Philippines. When it tries to show how fast dirt actually accumulates and how even the slightest touch can make a difference. Priceless! Look, my body's germ-y! 

Ha ha ha! I can really get this random!

Oh, It is Love

I know I want to write something but I can't think of any particular topic to dwell on. All I know is I'm loving the sun in its shining ways.

Can I pass as a penguin?

Look how lovely you are.

Hellogoodbye's Oh it is Love playing in the background. Isn't it wonderful?

Sweded Me!

Hail Be Kind Rewind movie! Haven't seen the movie though.

How would I be like as a mother-in-law?
Pretty hot, I guess. Ha ha ha.

My Sicko Game

Hey stranger! Thursday night! No school tomorrow. I think I have been depriving my readers of something really worthy to read. Well guess what, now's not the time to be serious. I've been writing papers of total seriousness for the past days and I want something really random to appear on my blog now. Until all things sickening get out of my system, I'll probably write something really good to reflect on. You know the works. When you're at school, you get busy and you tend to get really serious because of your really serious professor demanding you to read the New York Times, daily. Now while I am in the mood for something nasty, I want to show you my 8 weird faces.

top (L-R):
1. Crouching Tiger , Hidden Dragon
2. Making faces at the same time trying to still look cute but turned out stupid
3. "Ohmigod, I'm so hottt!"
4. The Kid Smile
bottom (L-R):
5. I must be emo.
6. Getting even on the mean girl: Pull her hair.
7. May the force be with you
8. the frog's been kissed

Now after all this drama, I'm tagging three people to do this thing too and post up on their blogs. I'm tagging: kathleen, daryll and you! Whoever you are, I'm tagging you. Just give me credit, okay?

And then tag three people too!

December Skies

For the sake of putting a post for the first day of December, let me announce that my poll's winner is Milo Ventimiglia. Although not too many have voted, I know that there has been a mushrooming of Milo lovers. Rock on, Milo.

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24 days before Christmas. It was said it's gonna snow tomorrow. Hope so.

music soundtrack

Rules:

1. put your music player on shuffle
2. press forward for each question
3. use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesnt make sense. NO CHEATING!

Questions:

How Are You Feeling Today?
A: Famous Last Words by My Chemical Romance (So I probably feel like dying. Eww. emo)

Will you get far in life?
A: Best I Ever Had by Vertical Horizon (Does this mean I can’t go far?)

How do your friends see you?
A: Cool With You be Jennifer Love Hewitt (Yea! Cool pala ako eh!)

Will You Get Married?
A: Brighter Than Sunshine by Aqualung (See, I won’t grow old alone with cats.)

What Is Your Bestfriend's theme song?
A: Such Great Heights by The Postal Service (We’ve been through heights?)

What is the story of your life?
A: Taking Over Me by the Evanescence (I remember I haven’t deleted Evanescence on my list. No to sad songs!)

What was High School Like?
A: Maybe Tomorrow by Stereophonics (Chill lang.)

How can you get ahead in life?
A: Me & You by Cassie (I need an effin’ boyfriend?!)

What is the best thing about your friends?
A: Ocean Avenue by Yellowcard (Sleeping all day stayin’ up all niiiiiiight, Yeah!)

What is today going to be like?
A: Do You Remember by Earth, Wind and Fire (Hmm, I really forget things.)

What is in store for this weekend?
A: Magasin by Paolo Santos (THE HELL!)

What song describes you?
A: I Want to Save You by Something Corporate (who wants to save meeee?)

To Describe Your Grandparents?
A: I Bet You Look Good on The Dance floor by Arctic Monkeys (lola on the dance floor, hmmmm.)

How is your life going?
A: I Will by Mozella (Full of will I guess)

What song will they play at your funeral?
A: Long Night by The Corrs (It will really be a long night without me!)

How does the world see you?
A: Tearing Through Me by Jamison Parker (dunno)

Will you live a happy life?
A: Neon by Spongecola (I guess)

What do your friends really think of you?
A: Welcome To My Life by Simple Life (I am welcoming and I am friendly. ;p)

How can I make myself happy?
A: Creep by Radiohead (So I should not let others see me? Labo!)

What should you do with your life?
A: Endless, A Silent Whisper by Urbandub (Be quiet. =/)

Will you ever have children?
A: I Don’t Want To Wait by Paula Cole (two babies?, one is six months old and the other is three, tralalala.)

This is fun! I recommend you do it too. =D