hearts and guitars

I've been playing the guitar this past week, almost googling every song that I know. I think I've always wanted to do this. School's been busy. I've been joining different organizations, showing up in meetings and meeting different people. It's quite expensive but I think I'm enjoying myself and I'm very much loving 2009.

trying to get busy with Arts and I got a new phone!

Anyway, Happy Valentine's Day everyone and despite being single, I don't sulk and I think Ingrid's happy pill still has an effect on me. I've never been this content for so long, I'm happy I don't even know.

Californized

I will forever remember my amazing trip to California. I will work on the details the following days or weeks, who knows. I'm just a little tired from my flight that I skipped school today. Way to start a year, definitely. I already skipped 2 school days including yesterday which totally slipped my mind. But that's okay. I'm still in denial I know but I'll face reality in a few.

Meanwhile, I'm back to being a good girl.

Flutter

I'd like to believe that I started the month right. How I wish it'd be like this for the whole month. I cannot believe that the semester is about to end, just when I had the inspiration to be in class most of the time, at least on Mondays and Wednesdays. 

Anyway, I started reading the rest of the Twilight books because I would like to remain in love. The books give off a certain good feeling, some sort of elation. Why, I cannot contain my elation this morning. How I wish I could elaborate. But just imagine not getting anything from your professor because the person beside you is getting all your attention, talking to you the whole time in the eye. Oh please don't stop talking and asking. You are the best seat mate. Ever. 

 

I just want to remember this day and hopefully, in the coming weeks I could still cling onto this, with my insides and smiles all in a flutter.

wait for it..

Just look how freeeaakin' hot Zac Efron is. 

Be back tomorrow. I hate that I am not updating.

And she came..

And conquered.

I didn't talk about Sam when she arrived last Tuesday because I thought it would be better to just keep it to myself as I savor every moment with her. And now that I totally feel like we're made for each other, I want to share it with the whole entire world. 

After sleepless nights of waiting..

She finally came, thanks to Fedex.

I just thought buying it online would be better.

Yes, Sam's my new lappy, a 2.4GHz 15 inch Macbook Pro, the product of my sweat and soda filling slash cash register job. The name was just randomly picked out of nowhere unlike Cybercuppycake which was really the computer's name of my previous Dell. (I'm lucky I'm older because younger sibs only get to enjoy their older sib's leftover. Cybercuppycake's with my bro now.) I still owe some money to the bank but I will pay for the remaining debt as soon as I get my next paycheck. Isn't it wonderful to get something you actually wished for through your own fcking sweat? I can stand for hours a day just to get more stuff I really wish I had. Don't even force me to tell you what's on my list. And don't tell me to stop rubbing this information in because I can freaking brag about it whenever I want. All day. Ha ha.

And to completely add the oomph to this cocky sensation, I know what I am doing whenever I am using Sam and I feel that I've been a Mac user for so long. (Laine, don't tell them I asked you about how to remove offline contacts from my YM list, hah!) Indeed, it's like Windows, only better. And cooler!

Get a Mac! Now! 

*Disclaimer: Apple didn't pay me to do this. I guess it's plain human nature to flaunt one's assets. And now I completely get peeps who allot time, effort and a blog entry or a photo album just to show off their new Macs. Tsk. Arrogant fools!

Let's Go Spotless

If you were to make a fictional movie/story happen in real life, what movie would it be? In my case I'd pick Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Have you seen the movie? I thought it was amazing. It was the first time I saw a serious Jim Carrey role. Basically, it poses the possibility of having to eliminate a person in your life, by erasing all memories shared with that person, down to his slightest presence. The process would be quick and easy that when you wake up, you are finally insert name here-free. Won't that be great?

A possible print ad. (yea, I did this. :))

You may say this isn't healthy, but I say it's freedom of choice. No more miserable nights, Kleenex-breeding trash bins and late night romantic tear jerker movie marathons, to completely dry one's tear ducts. Imagine if it happens in real life. There will be no more words for Denial stage, Moving-On, Getting there, Bitter (figuratively speaking) and all post break-up words imagined. I hate that I'm getting cheesy but overall, I am just thinking of a convenient way to spare every human being the freedom to fast forward their lives to the stage when they have completely forgotten the cruelty of a certain heartbreak. Screw that shizz.

If ever they meet up again, and hook up, then it's destiny that brought them together. I believe in its power! Ha ha. Although we can control our lives, there's still that supernatural force that brings people together even if they like it or not. As cliché as it may sound, there's still such thing as "the one" and believe me, you just got to have faith.

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind made it into my A-list movies because of its creativity, the way the film's made like how it appears to delete one's memory and all the special effects. Also, I just fell in love with the story and with its characters.

Anyway, I don't really know what I'd do if ever I'd get offered such a service.

But partly, I think, at the end of the day, guys and girls are hopeless romantics. They would still pick suffering. Besides, we love it. We love the pain, the sorrow because we crave for sympathy, partly wishing our *"exes" would see it too.

What do ya think?


*This is in general terms not necessarily speaking for myself.

Friendsick

My friend asked me to put up recent photos and I think I don't have anything to put up yet. For the past months the only pictures that I have taken were vanity shots for self-entertainment. Yes, it may sound weird but sometimes, call it obsessive-compulsive but the blank stares on my computer screen bring me into picking up Pink and just randomly take pictures of myself. You are laughing now. But I don't care. It's not like you're gonna see me tomorrow anyway. Ha ha.

I miss my friends and I miss the parties.

I am friendsick.

Anyway, this is a shout out to my sister Gabby. I really miss you and it's just terrible that I can't be there to celebrate your special day with you. :(


We're welcoming March in two weeks, whoa.

speechless

That was me. Valentine's Day of 2007. Last year. I can't believe it's been a year now.
I remember what I told John when he took this picture:
"Quick, it's hard to fake a smile you know,".

12 months later, it sounds like an understatement.

Best Friends Forever

Do you remember when you were still playing in school with your seat mate who tells you "I wanna be your bestfriend forever!" then you agreed and next day gave each other friendship bracelets? Those were the days when everyone's everyone's best friend. Somehow, I miss those elementary days when kids just hang out, play and consider each other best friends already. Point is, I just love how kids can make friends, or should I say best friends, in a wink.

In my case, I've had a fair share of BFF moments with people I don't even talk to now. It's actually weird that people consider another human being as their best friend. You know, if you think about it. But in the course of my day to day drama, I realized there really are human beings which fall under the category we call as " best".

It was hard for me to look for this "best" creature cause I've always thought I already found one. But you know, shit happens. We think we own something we don't actually have. And that's painful. So as days passed, I actually thought of giving up the idea of this " best" thing. It wasn't hard to give up since I was surrounded by a lot of friends. But eventually, I realized, there's just safety in numbers. We try to think that having plenty of friends is enough. But the real thing is, we still lack something. So we go back to the idea of a "bestfriend" and not for long, we find it. I found it and I found it in two beautiful persons.

with my two best friends, Eirrol and Gabby

I'm gonna miss them. I really will. I have always treated them as my own brothers and sisters and to be separated from them is like taking a part of me. I know there's internet, I know there's technology but the hugs, the laugh and the whole comfort I get from simply hanging out with them is incomparable.

It's sad.

But there's a reason for everything.

I love you Gabby and Eirrol. I will miss you. :)

friday, I'm in lurve?

For some reason, I have been keeping my blog really un-private. Really un-private in the sense that I have not touched that part of the story where I lay out some details of my wonderful life. And tonight, I had this urge to tell something cause I feel like artistahin. Ha ha! Boredom makes you do weird things. And I say I'm bored. :D

School
School has been making me busy lately. Sophomore year promises to become more academic and org-anic. And I think I'm gonna enjoy it. Although SOM dress code pisses me off, the subjects challenge me on the other hand to work extra double. Think Law and Accounting. I'm up for the challenge and more study time though. Geek mode on. I can't afford sleep over books now. The bed is my real enemy. (^.~)

Dorm
Since I am living alone, I have stretched my stay in school for the past weeks to avoid that early dismissal which could probably make me spaced out in my room. I haven't bought a condo for myself yet. I think that will happen next year. =( But no qualms about it. At least I've got ample space for me time every night.

Family on the other side of the planet
I still get sick of the feeling of living with myself alone. I miss my family in the States but I've got no choice so I try to forget the feeling through rigorous school work. I am actually getting more active in my orgs now to shake the feeling off. I get to talk to my parents every night anyway to update them with the events unfolding before me. Ha ha. They are happy for me though. They even tell me not to think too much about them but focus on school work instead. *sniff. I really miss our kulitan.

Friends!
Since my friends are around me really often, they are the ones who are actually acting as my foster family. To be more specific, my college friends are helping me really well. I really love them. Our short lived friendship feels like already a lifetime. And I must say I cherish that amount of care I receive from them everyday. Feels rewarding. We even shared a dessert in Pancake House during our dinner a while ago. I actually didn't want them to leave but that's too much to ask. Ha ha.

Lovers
Lovers that is. This is funny. Really funny. Can I just say I have stopped whining for the past weeks for not having a boyfriend? True. Ha ha. I can definitely consider myself a weird ass on this one. But you see, I have gone through that enlightenment which is the theory that I really don't need another creature to save me from the pits. Cause I can live with my own. I'm not saying I don't want to have a life partner. That will come in the future and today's far from that future yet. I can go dating but not to the point of really having this self disclosure to someone I have yet to build relationships with. I think I haven't found the guy. I must admit, I am too picky and I hate it. *lip-biting moment here. Sobra.


I'm such a loser for being home in a weekend. Adios.